Searching for my Happily Ever After.

Another depressing day. Had Peberdy for two lessons. God I hate her. I swear next time she talks to me like that I'll just break down into tears. Why can't I have stayed in foundation food? At least I felt clever there. I know I'm not. I'm just fucking stupid. Never getting anything right and never getting good grades. I didn't get a single A! Not one single fucking A! All Ds and Cs. Mum says that's good but I don't think so. I think it's a testament to my stupidity. God damn it! I fucking hate Peberdy!!! Aaaargh!

Everyone's getting worried about me. They want me to talk about it but I don't think I'll be able to without humiliating myself or hurting somebody. I'll probably be ignored anyway. I can see it now. I'm telling one of my friends everything and they listen to half of the first sentence before starting another conversation. Or laughing at me.

Even my friends have started to take the fucking piss. I just don't need that. But they'll go ahead and do it anyway.I think I should just stick to my resolve and exclude myself from everybody like I have been doing for about a week now. That way I can't be hurt anymore. But I know I will anyway.

What's the fucking point of it all?

Why is everything so bad all the time?

Why am I bullied so much?

Why am I so short, why am I so ugly, and why the HELL did I have to be raised as a witness? All it does is get me bullied more! Why did I go around telling everyone I was one when I was young? I know why. Because I'm stupid and always have been. Always will be. I have no fucking sense of humour, and I'm not good at anything.

SHIMATE!!!!!!!!!